So, about 5 moths ago I met this amazing girl. She's smart, beautiful, and just FANTASTIC! She's kind of masculine, because she wears men's clothes and spikes her short hair, but she's still very, very feminine in her personality and figure. It's this masculinity on the outside/ feminine on the inside that really drew me to her. I have always identified as staright, though I occasionally checked out a few girls. However, this girl feels different. I'm nervous around her, I have to build up courage to talk to her, I find myself dressing nicely to school just to impress her. I've liked guys before, but it's never been like how I like her.
I come from a very strict, "traditional" family, so coming out to them wouldn't be an option (i'm 17).
Besides, since i'm still so young, could this just be a phase? My gut istelling me no, but I'm just so confused. All I know is that I really, really like this girl.